about
→ the music
"its good music"
-my friend chrys
the taste
i think watching youtube as a kid as early as 2009 subconsciously influenced my music taste, because i always drifted around cheesy trance and happy hardcore.
(and i have a 2000s pop/emo playlist! surprisingly i did not get into any anime or manga until college - and the only ones that've touched my heart are YKK and sometimes Evangelion.)
i didn't really ride the 2010s EDM wave either; i was more interested in whatever we were playing in school band... up until 2016 when i rediscovered carly rae jepsen and fell down a rabbit hole of pop girls, leading me to one of my favorite albums of all time - Pop 2 by Charli XCX. i was totally enamored with PC Music; it was like that scene from Ratatouille where the critic is reminded of his childhood lol.
the entry
my entry to computer music was through Famitracker, which i was introduced to from a nerd friend in middle school. i made a bunch of shitty undertale covers. then i went to high school and got super busy with marching band. i didn't come back to making chiptunes until my senior year when i uploaded them to youtube. the warm reception encouraged me a lot, and in 2020ish i picked up OpenMPT; it just made sense to keep using trackers.
the return
i moved for college in 2021. a lot of things happened between 2021 and 2023 that aren't too relevant - they just kept me from realizing that music was still a huge part of me, even if i was preparing for a different career. in summer 2023 i was financially secure enough to stop worrying about it, and i started writing music again in my free time.
in the fall, i joined a production club filled with super genuine and incredibly talented musicians who have taught me so much. and although i'm relatively up to speed on how people make music now... i still can't let go of trackers lol.
the belief
a few years ago, i went under the knife, and i dreamt that i was in heaven. and heaven was a dance floor, with everyone moving into a single consciousness. i hold this memory closely.
in truth, music doesn't exist in a vacuum, and i believe we make it to be acknowledged and connected - to others and ourselves. of course i operate with the hopes that people will listen and like what they hear; that's the human part of me. but for my music to have existed at all is a pure blessing in its own right (if you take any kind of risk analysis class, you'll come out more grateful in general lol). to be able to go back and look at what i've done, and what i liked hearing years ago compared to what i will like in the future... it's a precious thing.
i just love music !!!